Down Again

 We are being encouraged to talk openly about mental problems to take away the stigma attached to it.
I have a mental health problem. It's called Avoident Personality Disorder. It's an anxiety based disorder.
Someone said that having this disorder means that there has never been a time in your life when you felt good enough or worthy enough.
I guess that sums it up nicely.


Down Again

What do you do
when the urge is strong
you know it's wrong
but the urge is strong
the urge to self harm,
to hurt yourself
to take away pain
which sounds insane
so what can you do
instead.
Suddenly fragile
once again
tears fall
but that's all.
No harming today.
It's not gone away
but buried once more
for now.

2013